I’m glad you’re here. I invite you to join me on the journey as I find my voice and share my life out loud.
#HopeandHealing
All in Faith
Truth is difficult. Pain is part of our journey and as parents, all we ever want is to spare our children from it. We want it so much our flesh tries to force us into seeing safety in other people and places because we crave it so badly. And then we play pretend and unwittingly force our children to do the same thing. Our very desire to create a feeling of safety takes the actual safety away.
It wasn’t that I was pretending to BE someone else, actually. What I was doing is never allowing my own needs or wants to be considered or even realized. From the smallest decisions - where shall we eat dinner? To the largest ones - where shall we live for the rest of our lives? I didn’t even ask myself what I wanted. I didn’t even want to know. I only wanted to know how I could “show love” to others by doing what they wanted. In the process I completely lost who I was.
Courage isn’t the absence fear. It’s the absolute presence of fear, but you DO IT ANYWAY. But when you’re doing God’s will. When you’re doing seemingly courageous things because He is calling you to do them, it’s not courage. It’s not bravery. It’s STINKIN’ AWESOME!
God has answered this other deeply rooted prayer of my mother’s heart with Hannah’s first romantic relationship. He has blown me away with his goodness and Love for my child.
